We all wish to sail through life in calm waters, making our way smoothly to destinations, navigating life's ups and downs and moving with the ebb and flow of the tide. The ever changing seasons and currents sometimes pull us off course, and our direction is altered, but we continue to move forward.
I have been sailing since I was a child, and my husband caught the sailing bug a few years ago. "What a lovely hobby a couple can do together" was my first thought, but I did not take Parkinson's into consideration. With great difficulty I am helped aboard the boat, and once my life jacket is donned, all checks have been made, mooring lines are let loose, we motor out of the harbour. Just as we reach the breakwater the waves pick up and the boat rocks back and forth, tilting and heeling. The boat is held in irons whilst the main sail is hoisted, and the droning of the engine abruptly stops as it's turned off, suddenly a calm silence reigns. The sails are trimmed, billow as the wind fills them moving us forward and all that can be heard is the gentle lapping of the waves against the hull of the boat. This is what some may call "being in the moment". However, it is a moment that Parkinson's does not take kindly to. I don't know if it is the motion, the heeling in particular or several problems together, but I find sailing very difficult and uncomfortable. Despite having sailed in my youth for 21 years, now having Parkinson's , I am amazed at my reaction to a sport I have participated in for so long. If it is a particularly calm day, not too choppy with a light wind, I manage, and enjoy spending precious "alone time" with my husband. I have little strength in my arms and terrible balance, so am of no help, unable to pull any ropes, I sit in the cockpit like "lady muck" whilst I watch my darling nimbly hop to and fro.
Today is someone's birthday who is very dear to me, so happy birthday and may all your dreams come true! If you could have written a song, I can't think of one with words more apt than Phil Collins "You'll be in my heart"